I'm really disappointed. I have to go to work quickly, but I am saddened for this women in Washington. I still pray for her, but she made up the story about acid being thrown in her face. Why would someone do this? I know that all the pray and support for her story moved her to come clean and tell the truth. I pray that her life is drastically changed by Christ...I am still sad though that she felt she had to lie and tell people this lie. :(
Well until next time....oh btw I get to visit with my parents. I'm so excited!
If you're interested in the story click Here for the link.
Friday, September 17, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Potatoes on my face?!
So, if you read previous blogs, you may know that I am struggling with acne and getting over the fact that it is on my face. Although I'm not really embarrassed about it, I do struggle with not touching my face or making the problem spots bleed on accident. I'm like a little kid when it comes to my fidgeting: my nails, my face, my cuticles, ect....I know I should pray for God to help me overcome, but my finger and face seem so minor compared to the prayers for other people in my life.
So back to my face troubles...and the title of my blog. Today one of our very nice clients noticed my face and asked if I was doing ok. I have been working a lot, but I really don't think it's stress. If anything I think it has more to do with the fact that I changed face cleaning products. When I mean change, I mean actually started ritually cleaning my face at night and in the morning. Like a mom nagging a child to do homework, perhaps all the attention irritated my face. Anyway, this very nice lady recommended putting raw potato on my face. I had to ask her again because I wasn't sure I heard her right (and it wasn't just because she had a strong accent either). Sure enough, she said she used to have a job where her face had to always be clean and acne free, so she would put thin slices of potato on her face, or the juice from the potato. I had never heard of such a thing. I looked it up online, and apparently many people have written on the subject. Tonight I grated a potato, not for hash-browns, but to wipe on my face. I felt so silly. I will have to update you on the success of this experiment.
Oh and I"m very excited. My parents are coming down from up North and are meeting us in LA to go to Universal Studios. We'll spend two nights up there and do the Universal Studios thing and then drive back down to our house for another night and full day of fun. I'm still debating what to make them for dinner, but I think I want to take them to a local restaurant, Cafe 101, for some great old fashion breakfast.
Well, thats all for tonight. I leave my blog with this passage for I have heard the word "worry" many times today.
6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. -Phillipians 4:6-7 NIV
So back to my face troubles...and the title of my blog. Today one of our very nice clients noticed my face and asked if I was doing ok. I have been working a lot, but I really don't think it's stress. If anything I think it has more to do with the fact that I changed face cleaning products. When I mean change, I mean actually started ritually cleaning my face at night and in the morning. Like a mom nagging a child to do homework, perhaps all the attention irritated my face. Anyway, this very nice lady recommended putting raw potato on my face. I had to ask her again because I wasn't sure I heard her right (and it wasn't just because she had a strong accent either). Sure enough, she said she used to have a job where her face had to always be clean and acne free, so she would put thin slices of potato on her face, or the juice from the potato. I had never heard of such a thing. I looked it up online, and apparently many people have written on the subject. Tonight I grated a potato, not for hash-browns, but to wipe on my face. I felt so silly. I will have to update you on the success of this experiment.
Oh and I"m very excited. My parents are coming down from up North and are meeting us in LA to go to Universal Studios. We'll spend two nights up there and do the Universal Studios thing and then drive back down to our house for another night and full day of fun. I'm still debating what to make them for dinner, but I think I want to take them to a local restaurant, Cafe 101, for some great old fashion breakfast.
Well, thats all for tonight. I leave my blog with this passage for I have heard the word "worry" many times today.
6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. -Phillipians 4:6-7 NIV
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Frustration...Give it to God
So lately I have been trying to get my face to clear up from adult acne (I say adult because I am now 25 and I didn't have to deal with it when I was a teenager. I knew it would catch up to me) To say the least, it has been failing miserably. I am trying so hard not to care. I'm such a child when it comes to touching my face or biting my finger nails. I need to pray more about it. Not pray for it to go away, because I don't think that is the deeper issue. I want to pray that it will not bother me (or I it) I honestly don't care what I look like, but my flesh says that I do.
When I truly think about my looks and how I feel, I like to think of the girl I heard about on the news just recently. She was in Seattle and a random person went up to her with a cup of acid and threw it on her face. Do I think that God was responsible for such an act? Heavens no, but He did let it happen. Her strength in the entire matter has really opened my eyes and show me how I need to be no matter what I look like or what people think of me. (Click Here for the story about this girl. Pray for her too, if God puts it on your heart)
Although life on this earth can be complicated, I don't think it was meant to be. The worldly things aren't meant to consume me. Today to and from work I got the chance to listen to my audio book a little more (The Christian Atheist by Craig Groeschel for those who may not have read my previous post) He talks to my own feelings all the time. How my heart will nudge me to do something, but I pass up the chance. I pass the chance to stop doing something I know I shouldn't do. So often I'd like to compare myself to Paul in that I do the things I don't and I don't do the things I want to. I know this is something that everyone struggles with. My problem is that I have often justified the things. I defend the fact that its ok because other people have done way worse. I must remember that my sin does not mean that Jesus is glorified even more. .
Jesus, you are the only one who knows what is best for me. It may not make me happy and I'm good with that. The things that have given me temporary happiness have all caused heart ache and pain. After the happy feeling wares off that is. Thank you Lord for loving me. I know I am loved because I would not be able to feel your presence during my walk with you. I would not be able to know what is right or wrong. If you did not love me you would not let the Holy Spirit speak to me. Lord, exchange my own ruined conscientiousness with your voice alone. The only good in me is you. I don't want to dweal on these things anymore. Please help me to love you more, unconditionally.
When I truly think about my looks and how I feel, I like to think of the girl I heard about on the news just recently. She was in Seattle and a random person went up to her with a cup of acid and threw it on her face. Do I think that God was responsible for such an act? Heavens no, but He did let it happen. Her strength in the entire matter has really opened my eyes and show me how I need to be no matter what I look like or what people think of me. (Click Here for the story about this girl. Pray for her too, if God puts it on your heart)
Although life on this earth can be complicated, I don't think it was meant to be. The worldly things aren't meant to consume me. Today to and from work I got the chance to listen to my audio book a little more (The Christian Atheist by Craig Groeschel for those who may not have read my previous post) He talks to my own feelings all the time. How my heart will nudge me to do something, but I pass up the chance. I pass the chance to stop doing something I know I shouldn't do. So often I'd like to compare myself to Paul in that I do the things I don't and I don't do the things I want to. I know this is something that everyone struggles with. My problem is that I have often justified the things. I defend the fact that its ok because other people have done way worse. I must remember that my sin does not mean that Jesus is glorified even more. .
Jesus, you are the only one who knows what is best for me. It may not make me happy and I'm good with that. The things that have given me temporary happiness have all caused heart ache and pain. After the happy feeling wares off that is. Thank you Lord for loving me. I know I am loved because I would not be able to feel your presence during my walk with you. I would not be able to know what is right or wrong. If you did not love me you would not let the Holy Spirit speak to me. Lord, exchange my own ruined conscientiousness with your voice alone. The only good in me is you. I don't want to dweal on these things anymore. Please help me to love you more, unconditionally.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
On the way to somewhere
A new day and so far it has proven eventful. Of course my eventful day may sound boring to some.
This morning I got the chance to learn even more from Randy how to do sound at church. They have a four channel board which allows for a challenge when it comes to making the right mix for each area. She even let me edit the cd which is supposed to be uploaded on the church site. It allows for more people to hear the word of God. My stupid butt screwed it up though. There computer is kinda old so it wasn't doing what it was supposed to do. I'll find out on Wednesday if I messed it up too bad.
After church Nathan and I went to El Torritos for a birthday lunch on them. We then adventures to a tactical shop, a furniture store and lastly, Wal-mart. I told Nathan we should create a help group for people who think that roaming wal-mart is a fix for boredom. We would be the top members by experience.
We are now traveling to Vista to hang out with friends. I'm excited to meet more people. I hope I can Shine Gods light there through action and voice. So often I feel as if I feel the Spirit inside and forget to let him shine outside. O realize that I will never get anywhere unless I start letting God work in this life. How I pray that my husband will be on the same page. Thank you Jesus, the grace you show me is more than I deserve
This morning I got the chance to learn even more from Randy how to do sound at church. They have a four channel board which allows for a challenge when it comes to making the right mix for each area. She even let me edit the cd which is supposed to be uploaded on the church site. It allows for more people to hear the word of God. My stupid butt screwed it up though. There computer is kinda old so it wasn't doing what it was supposed to do. I'll find out on Wednesday if I messed it up too bad.
After church Nathan and I went to El Torritos for a birthday lunch on them. We then adventures to a tactical shop, a furniture store and lastly, Wal-mart. I told Nathan we should create a help group for people who think that roaming wal-mart is a fix for boredom. We would be the top members by experience.
We are now traveling to Vista to hang out with friends. I'm excited to meet more people. I hope I can Shine Gods light there through action and voice. So often I feel as if I feel the Spirit inside and forget to let him shine outside. O realize that I will never get anywhere unless I start letting God work in this life. How I pray that my husband will be on the same page. Thank you Jesus, the grace you show me is more than I deserve
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Labor Day W/E
It is the weekend! An extended one at that. Here is am, spending time on the computer while my husband plays a video game of some sort. Although I don't know much about it, it looks interesting enough; full of zombies and large bugs that he gets to shoot at. He's weird, by he's my weirdo. What a lucky wife I am. I guess it really isn't luck as much at is grace.
This is the exact type of moments that I feel lazy. Moments where I'm not sure what to do and I'm starting to think of ways to spend money. I know when I start thinking about spending money or my mind, purchasing things I really need, I start realizing that it's time to move on.
I spoke with my uncle yesterday, good conversation too, and he offered to read my resume and help make improvements if needed. That is my next project, With the move back to Oregon coming soon, it's probably a good idea to get a job lined up. Unemployment benefits aren't really my idea of living.
Well this blog was full of nothing, so I figure it's time to move on.
This is the exact type of moments that I feel lazy. Moments where I'm not sure what to do and I'm starting to think of ways to spend money. I know when I start thinking about spending money or my mind, purchasing things I really need, I start realizing that it's time to move on.
I spoke with my uncle yesterday, good conversation too, and he offered to read my resume and help make improvements if needed. That is my next project, With the move back to Oregon coming soon, it's probably a good idea to get a job lined up. Unemployment benefits aren't really my idea of living.
Well this blog was full of nothing, so I figure it's time to move on.
The beginning
Perhaps the beginning isn't the best title for this blog, but it gives it the sense that something is starting.
Right now I have been listening to the book, "The Christian Atheist" by Craig Groeschel. Before you start thinking "that is an oxymoron," you might want to think about it a little more. I can honestly say I am guilty of believing in God, but living as if he doesn't exist. The more I read this book, the more I really get a look into how my life has just moved along from day-to-day with moments of repentance, lots of horrible decisions and acts, and then more repentance. I am so sick of taking two steps forward and three steps back. I am tired of asking for forgiveness, but not really accepting it or believing that I am forgiven.
I have gone through the motions and read my bible daily, prayed, gone to church, and even volunteered with church and my community. All these things are just acts. Ways of trying to convince myself that I am being a Christian. By pretending is all it really is and all it has really felt like. It doesn't matter what people see on the outside if my heart isn't for God. I have even had the best of intentions. What is the saying, "Fake it till you make it." I don't want to fake it, I don't want to be one person at church, one person at home and one person at work. God is the same always (Hebrews 13:8), why should I be different. Sure God is complex. I see God is multifaceted, but not having multiple personalities. I am a wife, an employee, a child of God, a child of my parents, a sister, and friend, and a leader. I shouldn't be a Christian at church, a slacker and lazy wife at home, and a hard working, "get along with everyone", bobble head at work. (by bobble head I mean someone that just nods and agrees with everything everyone says, whether right or wrong).
I want honesty in this blog, and that is what I'm going to put down. I don't love Jesus enough. It is my prayer to love him more and to know him more. To have him as my personal savior, friend, and healer. My words speak one thing and my heart believes another. Until my words and heart jive with one another, I will continue to battle. Thank you Lord for continuing to minister to my heart through your Word and the people around me.
Right now I have been listening to the book, "The Christian Atheist" by Craig Groeschel. Before you start thinking "that is an oxymoron," you might want to think about it a little more. I can honestly say I am guilty of believing in God, but living as if he doesn't exist. The more I read this book, the more I really get a look into how my life has just moved along from day-to-day with moments of repentance, lots of horrible decisions and acts, and then more repentance. I am so sick of taking two steps forward and three steps back. I am tired of asking for forgiveness, but not really accepting it or believing that I am forgiven.
I have gone through the motions and read my bible daily, prayed, gone to church, and even volunteered with church and my community. All these things are just acts. Ways of trying to convince myself that I am being a Christian. By pretending is all it really is and all it has really felt like. It doesn't matter what people see on the outside if my heart isn't for God. I have even had the best of intentions. What is the saying, "Fake it till you make it." I don't want to fake it, I don't want to be one person at church, one person at home and one person at work. God is the same always (Hebrews 13:8), why should I be different. Sure God is complex. I see God is multifaceted, but not having multiple personalities. I am a wife, an employee, a child of God, a child of my parents, a sister, and friend, and a leader. I shouldn't be a Christian at church, a slacker and lazy wife at home, and a hard working, "get along with everyone", bobble head at work. (by bobble head I mean someone that just nods and agrees with everything everyone says, whether right or wrong).
I want honesty in this blog, and that is what I'm going to put down. I don't love Jesus enough. It is my prayer to love him more and to know him more. To have him as my personal savior, friend, and healer. My words speak one thing and my heart believes another. Until my words and heart jive with one another, I will continue to battle. Thank you Lord for continuing to minister to my heart through your Word and the people around me.
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