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Monday, September 26, 2011
Looking back
Someone suggested I write when I am struggling. I am glad I got a chance to read what I wrote this time last year. Was I really that happy? Did I mean all that I wrote? If so how can I so easily forget. *sigh. How I wish for a consistant level of joy. I suppose I wouldn't know it as joy if it was always the same. I am called a drama queen sometimes. Not for reasons you might think. I seem to draw to it or create. I say it seeks me out. Either way when things are going great the devil seems to mix everything up and I am left sorting out the good from the bad. Not always recognizing which is which.
Struggles I am having: feeling full. This fullness doesn't come from random strangers or past infatuations. I need to understand that I may not be completely full all the times but I should be happy with every moment I am. I am struggling. Please give me strength.
Ttfn
Struggles I am having: feeling full. This fullness doesn't come from random strangers or past infatuations. I need to understand that I may not be completely full all the times but I should be happy with every moment I am. I am struggling. Please give me strength.
Ttfn
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Childish behavior
Today's world. What will people say about it 50 years from now? Will the next generation finally realize that we can all get along? Will we realize that we need to stop talking about each other badly, stop spreading rumors, and stop hating? Right now with North Korea bombing islands of South Korea and foreign diplomats being outed through WikiLeaks for things they "said" or "wrote".
It all seams so silly to me. True I dislike some people or I don't feel like being friendly to others, but when it comes down to it I have no desire for their death or demise.
Lord you are so good. You have a master plan and we must continue running the race. Thank you Lord for instilling us with the good and not the bad. Thank you for teaching us what is right and wrong. Please help those who love you to continue to show other people your love. Help me to take a step out of my comfortable box and remind others how much you have done and will do for us. I am in this world but I am NOT of this world. I am a child of yours, someone who has seen the light. Let me continue to walk only on the lite path, for anything else is darkness and therefore sin.
It all seams so silly to me. True I dislike some people or I don't feel like being friendly to others, but when it comes down to it I have no desire for their death or demise.
Lord you are so good. You have a master plan and we must continue running the race. Thank you Lord for instilling us with the good and not the bad. Thank you for teaching us what is right and wrong. Please help those who love you to continue to show other people your love. Help me to take a step out of my comfortable box and remind others how much you have done and will do for us. I am in this world but I am NOT of this world. I am a child of yours, someone who has seen the light. Let me continue to walk only on the lite path, for anything else is darkness and therefore sin.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Productive day!!!
Hi All!
Still going fairly strong on these blogs. Today has been a great day; full of In n' Out with Nathan, some laundry, and organized the closet. Nathan was happy, I found some memory cards that he has been looking for.
I also started to clean out my files. It's not something I do often, but I realized that I must start doing it if I want to pursue my current career interest. I described the job before I even knew the right job title. Apparently what I want to do is called a Daily Money Manager. I see clients all day that have a hard time paying the bills on time, a hard time staying organized, even a hard time signing their name. The purpose of a Daily Money Manager is not to council or advise someone, but to purely take care of the tedious things like paying bills on time, writing checks, checking bills and statements for accuracy. In the long run many people are paying fees and inaccurate bills which they don't even realize. My job as a Daily Money Manager would be to take all stress out of filing, bills, statements, medical bills, ect. Of course to do this I probably should start with my own files. Bills are no problem, but files are another story. I think I need more education and experience before I pursue my own business. God is my direction and as long as I do what ever I am doing for God then I will continue to go in the right direction.
Colossians 3:23-24
23Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, 24since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.
Much Love,
Shelby
Still going fairly strong on these blogs. Today has been a great day; full of In n' Out with Nathan, some laundry, and organized the closet. Nathan was happy, I found some memory cards that he has been looking for.
I also started to clean out my files. It's not something I do often, but I realized that I must start doing it if I want to pursue my current career interest. I described the job before I even knew the right job title. Apparently what I want to do is called a Daily Money Manager. I see clients all day that have a hard time paying the bills on time, a hard time staying organized, even a hard time signing their name. The purpose of a Daily Money Manager is not to council or advise someone, but to purely take care of the tedious things like paying bills on time, writing checks, checking bills and statements for accuracy. In the long run many people are paying fees and inaccurate bills which they don't even realize. My job as a Daily Money Manager would be to take all stress out of filing, bills, statements, medical bills, ect. Of course to do this I probably should start with my own files. Bills are no problem, but files are another story. I think I need more education and experience before I pursue my own business. God is my direction and as long as I do what ever I am doing for God then I will continue to go in the right direction.
Colossians 3:23-24
23Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men, 24since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.
Much Love,
Shelby
Friday, September 17, 2010
Saddened
I'm really disappointed. I have to go to work quickly, but I am saddened for this women in Washington. I still pray for her, but she made up the story about acid being thrown in her face. Why would someone do this? I know that all the pray and support for her story moved her to come clean and tell the truth. I pray that her life is drastically changed by Christ...I am still sad though that she felt she had to lie and tell people this lie. :(
Well until next time....oh btw I get to visit with my parents. I'm so excited!
If you're interested in the story click Here for the link.
Well until next time....oh btw I get to visit with my parents. I'm so excited!
If you're interested in the story click Here for the link.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Potatoes on my face?!
So, if you read previous blogs, you may know that I am struggling with acne and getting over the fact that it is on my face. Although I'm not really embarrassed about it, I do struggle with not touching my face or making the problem spots bleed on accident. I'm like a little kid when it comes to my fidgeting: my nails, my face, my cuticles, ect....I know I should pray for God to help me overcome, but my finger and face seem so minor compared to the prayers for other people in my life.
So back to my face troubles...and the title of my blog. Today one of our very nice clients noticed my face and asked if I was doing ok. I have been working a lot, but I really don't think it's stress. If anything I think it has more to do with the fact that I changed face cleaning products. When I mean change, I mean actually started ritually cleaning my face at night and in the morning. Like a mom nagging a child to do homework, perhaps all the attention irritated my face. Anyway, this very nice lady recommended putting raw potato on my face. I had to ask her again because I wasn't sure I heard her right (and it wasn't just because she had a strong accent either). Sure enough, she said she used to have a job where her face had to always be clean and acne free, so she would put thin slices of potato on her face, or the juice from the potato. I had never heard of such a thing. I looked it up online, and apparently many people have written on the subject. Tonight I grated a potato, not for hash-browns, but to wipe on my face. I felt so silly. I will have to update you on the success of this experiment.
Oh and I"m very excited. My parents are coming down from up North and are meeting us in LA to go to Universal Studios. We'll spend two nights up there and do the Universal Studios thing and then drive back down to our house for another night and full day of fun. I'm still debating what to make them for dinner, but I think I want to take them to a local restaurant, Cafe 101, for some great old fashion breakfast.
Well, thats all for tonight. I leave my blog with this passage for I have heard the word "worry" many times today.
6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. -Phillipians 4:6-7 NIV
So back to my face troubles...and the title of my blog. Today one of our very nice clients noticed my face and asked if I was doing ok. I have been working a lot, but I really don't think it's stress. If anything I think it has more to do with the fact that I changed face cleaning products. When I mean change, I mean actually started ritually cleaning my face at night and in the morning. Like a mom nagging a child to do homework, perhaps all the attention irritated my face. Anyway, this very nice lady recommended putting raw potato on my face. I had to ask her again because I wasn't sure I heard her right (and it wasn't just because she had a strong accent either). Sure enough, she said she used to have a job where her face had to always be clean and acne free, so she would put thin slices of potato on her face, or the juice from the potato. I had never heard of such a thing. I looked it up online, and apparently many people have written on the subject. Tonight I grated a potato, not for hash-browns, but to wipe on my face. I felt so silly. I will have to update you on the success of this experiment.
Oh and I"m very excited. My parents are coming down from up North and are meeting us in LA to go to Universal Studios. We'll spend two nights up there and do the Universal Studios thing and then drive back down to our house for another night and full day of fun. I'm still debating what to make them for dinner, but I think I want to take them to a local restaurant, Cafe 101, for some great old fashion breakfast.
Well, thats all for tonight. I leave my blog with this passage for I have heard the word "worry" many times today.
6Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. -Phillipians 4:6-7 NIV
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Frustration...Give it to God
So lately I have been trying to get my face to clear up from adult acne (I say adult because I am now 25 and I didn't have to deal with it when I was a teenager. I knew it would catch up to me) To say the least, it has been failing miserably. I am trying so hard not to care. I'm such a child when it comes to touching my face or biting my finger nails. I need to pray more about it. Not pray for it to go away, because I don't think that is the deeper issue. I want to pray that it will not bother me (or I it) I honestly don't care what I look like, but my flesh says that I do.
When I truly think about my looks and how I feel, I like to think of the girl I heard about on the news just recently. She was in Seattle and a random person went up to her with a cup of acid and threw it on her face. Do I think that God was responsible for such an act? Heavens no, but He did let it happen. Her strength in the entire matter has really opened my eyes and show me how I need to be no matter what I look like or what people think of me. (Click Here for the story about this girl. Pray for her too, if God puts it on your heart)
Although life on this earth can be complicated, I don't think it was meant to be. The worldly things aren't meant to consume me. Today to and from work I got the chance to listen to my audio book a little more (The Christian Atheist by Craig Groeschel for those who may not have read my previous post) He talks to my own feelings all the time. How my heart will nudge me to do something, but I pass up the chance. I pass the chance to stop doing something I know I shouldn't do. So often I'd like to compare myself to Paul in that I do the things I don't and I don't do the things I want to. I know this is something that everyone struggles with. My problem is that I have often justified the things. I defend the fact that its ok because other people have done way worse. I must remember that my sin does not mean that Jesus is glorified even more. .
Jesus, you are the only one who knows what is best for me. It may not make me happy and I'm good with that. The things that have given me temporary happiness have all caused heart ache and pain. After the happy feeling wares off that is. Thank you Lord for loving me. I know I am loved because I would not be able to feel your presence during my walk with you. I would not be able to know what is right or wrong. If you did not love me you would not let the Holy Spirit speak to me. Lord, exchange my own ruined conscientiousness with your voice alone. The only good in me is you. I don't want to dweal on these things anymore. Please help me to love you more, unconditionally.
When I truly think about my looks and how I feel, I like to think of the girl I heard about on the news just recently. She was in Seattle and a random person went up to her with a cup of acid and threw it on her face. Do I think that God was responsible for such an act? Heavens no, but He did let it happen. Her strength in the entire matter has really opened my eyes and show me how I need to be no matter what I look like or what people think of me. (Click Here for the story about this girl. Pray for her too, if God puts it on your heart)
Although life on this earth can be complicated, I don't think it was meant to be. The worldly things aren't meant to consume me. Today to and from work I got the chance to listen to my audio book a little more (The Christian Atheist by Craig Groeschel for those who may not have read my previous post) He talks to my own feelings all the time. How my heart will nudge me to do something, but I pass up the chance. I pass the chance to stop doing something I know I shouldn't do. So often I'd like to compare myself to Paul in that I do the things I don't and I don't do the things I want to. I know this is something that everyone struggles with. My problem is that I have often justified the things. I defend the fact that its ok because other people have done way worse. I must remember that my sin does not mean that Jesus is glorified even more. .
Jesus, you are the only one who knows what is best for me. It may not make me happy and I'm good with that. The things that have given me temporary happiness have all caused heart ache and pain. After the happy feeling wares off that is. Thank you Lord for loving me. I know I am loved because I would not be able to feel your presence during my walk with you. I would not be able to know what is right or wrong. If you did not love me you would not let the Holy Spirit speak to me. Lord, exchange my own ruined conscientiousness with your voice alone. The only good in me is you. I don't want to dweal on these things anymore. Please help me to love you more, unconditionally.
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